frickin' stupid shut up. hormones? Is it? who cares when I'm pissed, it doesnt matter why. I just am

Katie merci beaucoup for leaving the internet up. even if it was unintentional
oh yes-can I use your laptop?
I'll take that as a yes

I am in such a bad mood right now. everything is just like, stress over stress and it's a buildup and I feel like I want to punch someone or swear like crazy. and I don't swear

band today was alright. Martin said zip about the forks. thanks Chuck.
Nick asked if I practiced with the mute (I did) and said he'd get me a copy of the cd. dunno when he's gonna give it to me, but I'd really appreciate it because I wanna here how they do the solo on the cd. that plunger mute sucks. I don't like it that much. but maybe after I listen to the cd I'll know how to use it better.
Greg made us all play the solo's today-one after another. which was cool. during sectionals, I got to go last(so oh COURSE they make me go first when the rest of the band comes in. shakes fist)
I don't like the solo in that song, but I don't think I did TOO bad. wasn't the best, but Greg said I did something right-like the high point of the solo is these two high F's, and when I hit them I apparently made them stand out or whatever. he said it was good and I did it right. so that's cool

came home. just about to take a nap when mom and katie come home with stuff to be put away.
take a three hour nap in mom and dad's bed with Macky. so nice

wake up-work on APUSH junk. (speaking of which-question. for whoever wants to answer. but you MUST answer. Let's pretend that I don't understand something. For the After the Fact packet, what are we supposed to do after we read it? write another essay thingy? are there no questions that need to be answered? TELL ME I NEED TO KNOW!!!!!!!!!)
anywho-mom tell's me I gotta count the money(don't ask) tonight-so I figured might as well do it now. did that for a while
then dinner at culver's

and I just have no patience right now. I'm short with everyone and I'm ready to just scream.
I dunno why. it's just like everything's built up. school's starting soon, I'm not ready, and I'm not too sure that I want to see my friends right now.....I'm fed up with just about everybody(but not everyone) and I feel like school starting will only make it a bit worse.

I feel ignored, frustrated, lonely, stressed, rushed, anxious, sad, mad, annoyed, etc ect.

I dunno. this summer has just royally sucked.
but whatever.
I don't have time to be complaining right now. I have way too much to do.
don't ask how far I am on APUSH I will bite your head off
and you kinda need your head.

anyways-answer my question

sarah-tell me how vandercook went tomorrow. (ya know-like, after you get home.)


later.....